Color quiz again.

Is it right or is it wrong? YOU DECIDE! Muahaha. Sorry. hyper. No meds. Blah. Tired. Just.... ugh.

Your Existing Situation

Easily affected by her environment and readily moved by the emotions of others. Seeks congenial relationships and an occupation which will promote them.

Your Stress Sources

The tenacity and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties has become weakened. Feels overtaxed, worn out, and getting nowhere, but continues to stand her ground. She feels this adverse situation as an actual tangible pressure which is intolerable to her and from which she wants to escape, but she feels unable to make the necessary decision.

Your Restrained Characteristics

Circumstances are such that she feels forced to compromise for the time being if she is to avoid being cut off from affection or from full participation.

Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense. Sensitive and sentimental, but conceals this from all except those very close to him.

Your Desired Objective

Has a powerful drive towards sensuousness.

Your Actual Problem

The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond her capabilities, or reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. She attempts to escape from this into a stable and secure environment in which she can relax and recover, free from any further demands on him.

Color quiz

This was oh-so-right.::::

"Your Existing Situation

Dissatisfied. The need to escape continued involvement with her present
circumstances makes it imperative for her to find some solution.

Your Stress Sources

The situation is regarded as threatening or dangerous.
Outraged by the thought that she will be unable to achieve her goals and
distressed at the feeling of helplessness to remedy this.
Over-extended and feels beset, possibly to the point of nervous prostration.

Your Restrained Characteristics

The situation is preventing her from establishing herself,
but she feels she must make the best of things as they are.
Very exacting in the standards she applies to her choice of a
partner and seeking a rather unrealistic perfection in her sex life.


Your Desired Objective

Longs for a tender and sympathetic bond and
for a situation of idealized harmony. Has an imperative need for tenderness and
affection. Susceptible to anything esthetic.

Your Actual Problem

Depleted vitality has created an intolerance for any further stimulation,
or demands on her resources. This feeling of powerlessness subjects her to
agitation and acute distress. She attempts to escape into a substitute
world in which things are more nearly as she desires them to be."

Blood.

Yes, that's right. I'm cutting off the fat from my body. I'm so hideous. I just need all of this fat off of me. I can never be thin enough, but I can always be fat enough. I want someone to help me. I should call Kristin [my therapist] but I don't want to. Maybe I should go to an ED specialist.

Woo!

Hoo! It's my birthdayyy!!! I'm sooo excited!
[I just don't want to have to eat my cake, but... I'm sure I'm going to be forced to. "/]
I'm fifteeeeen. Woohoo! :'D

Not for a while.

have I updated this blog. I kinda forgot about it for a bit, but then I remembered it and just never got around to, like, updating it.

I guess things are going all right... But Idk. I just don't feel.... Right? Is that it? Idk.

I guess I'll update in a little.

I totally did not make the all region orchestra. UGH.
I failed so miserably. I was shaking so bad, and I couldn't concentrate and ewwie I SUCKED.

Ehhhhh. and I miss Vic. I wish that he was here right now to kiss me..

OH! Alex just got in. (Maybe he'll cyber? o.o;)

I wish that I could understand... myself, really. I'm so used to abuse that I don't want to believe in love anymore.

Sometimes I feel that love is just an illusion. Other people can believe they love you, or you can believe you love someone else (or even yourself), but then it will just disappear.

Nothing works out right.

My mom kicked me off of the phone 'cause I didn't finish my homework. I hate this crap, man. I hate homework, I hate myself, I hate life. It all fucking sucks. -_-
Okay, blah. Someone needs to help me see the positives of things. NOT just my therapist. Vic helps me. With most of that. But who do I run to when these things happen with my thoughts of him? I can't run to Ami now 'cause she talks about Matt, and I'd feel bad interrupting her.

Ehhhhhh.

I'm going to pretend I'm smart right now. Or rather, smart like I used to be when I thought this up. I can't find the original, so I'll just have to think of what I might have said. =/


There are two types of Atheists (ahh-- how I remember that I could not spell that word back then. alas, I still do not know if it is capitalized or not) :

- the one who understands and acknowledges

- && the one who just ridicules anything that believes in anything




(Oh jeeze. I know this is not going to be anything like what I originally wrote, so I'll just make up my new one for now)


So anyway, let's start this over.


There are two types of Atheists:

- those who understand religion and accept and are tolerant

- those who are rather obnoxious (yes, let's put it that way)

We'll call the tolerant ones Type A, and the obnoxious ones Type B.





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screw this. Haha. I'm just going to type this crap up later. I'm tired of typing about something that I'm not interested in at the current time. I'm more interested in my book right now. :P

This will probably be used to post my poems and such, but I am still unsure of it's use for now.